if it doesn't bring you energy, inspiration or orgasm

it doesn't belong in your life.

 After this year,

I actually want to give 

myself a big hug because

I am still standing.

"Zeit zu tanzen" von Silbermond

Bei all dem Lärm um nichts,
bei all dem Smog, der uns umgibt,
ist es ab und zu Zeit zu tanzen.
Bei all den Gründen zu verzweifeln,
bei allem, was uns um die Ohren fliegt,
ist es hin und wieder Zeit zu tanzen.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWO8IY6W_Aw)

"Bloom for Yourself" by April Green

 the earth needs to feel you

the most tragic thing a woman can do is
feel undeserving of the space they take up;
make themselves smaller, shrink.

you must learn to rise every morning
with the unapologetic belief that the
air you breathe belongs to you as much as it
belongs to anyone else.

Arthur C. Clarke

I don't believe in astrology; 

I'm a Sagittarius and 

we’re skeptical.

"Breath(넌 날 숨 쉬게 해)" by GOT7

Fjodor Dostojewski

Wenn es keinen Gott gibt,
dann ist alles erlaubt.

Camus

Niemand realisiert, dass einige Menschen enorm viel Energie aufwenden, nur, um normal zu sein.

~Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.

Flugmodus" von Clueso

 

 

"Der 2. November" von Dramadigs

https://open.spotify.com/track/1dJOIL9kIDM04LFTxiNfJP

Minh D. Tran

Großartiges Design besteht im Weglassen aller unnötigen Details. 

"Über Gewicht: Mein dickes Leben" von Natalie Rosenke

Natalie Rosenke ist »Ü100«: Bei 1,60 Metern Körpergröße wiegt sie mehr als 100 Kilo. Das ist für sie kein Problem – für viele andere Menschen aber schon. Hier erzählt die 41-Jährige, was es heißt, als dicker Mensch in einer Gesellschaft zu leben, die dünn zu ihrem Ideal erklärt hat. Rosenke ist Vorsitzende der Gesellschaft gegen Gewichtsdiskriminierung. 

https://sz-magazin.sueddeutsche.de/tag/ueber-gewicht-mein-dickes-leben

"Home;Run" by Seventeen (세븐틴)

don't step back. don't listen to anyone. 

just do whatever you want ... when the ball comes to you, 

you still have one chance left. don't give up.

just be yourself.
what are so worried about?

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UB4FzllQCyc)

"Perm" by Bruno Mars

 Throw some perm on your attitude

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftXmvnL0ZOc)
(https://open.spotify.com/track/1I6pKIyaBp4OebTGLJpCCC)

"Horizons Into Battlegrounds" by Woodkid

https://open.spotify.com/track/1SSoLdnoptUGfs5kwgVQms?si=bhwkNWSRSwCyuz8ogQqTug

spotify:track:1SSoLdnoptUGfs5kwgVQms

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nIhYlw-O3G8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryXb_V71KKU

"The World" by C.X. Hua

Somehow, you grow lonelier

than the world that contains you.
That is why you so
want to be touched.

(full poem here: https://theadroitjournal.org/issue-thirty-three/c-x-hua-poetry/)

"Rose" by aeJ

Don't you know that nothing's really ever beautiful

We're all just broken windows 

What you see depends from where you set your eye

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lATuh4bQyYE)

"Find Me" by Sigma ft. Birdy

If you're ready, heart is open

I'll be waiting
Come find me

If you're searching for forever
I'll be waiting
Come find me

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ec92Wa8zJs8)

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E3S66Vk8MAw)

(https://open.spotify.com/track/6xB7E0HOWznwiO0v56mqwD)

BTS return to the United Nations | UNICEF

Our tomorrow may be dark, painful, difficult. And we might stumble or fall down.

But the stars shine brightest when the night is darkest. And if the stars are hidden,

we'll let moonlight guide us. If even the moon is dark, let our faces be the light

that helps us find our way. Let's reimagine our world. We're huddled together tired, 

but let's dream again. Let's dream about a future when our worlds can break out 

of our small rooms again. It might feel like it's always night and we'll always be alone, 

but the night is always the darkest before the first light of dawn.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVbod1-Nx7A)

Record of Youth, 2020

We have it rough from birth,
so all we can do
is find our own fun in life.

"Magnus Chase - Das Schwert des Sommers" von Rick Riordan

   "Paradoxe Bestandteile?"

   Blitz hielt ein Ende des Seils hoch und stieß einen beifälligen

Pfiff aus. "Er meint Dinge, die es eigentlich gar nicht geben dürfte.

Es ist sehr schwer mit paradoxen Bestandteilen zu arbeiten, sehr

gefährlich. Gleipnir enthielt das Stampfen einer Katze, den Speichel

eines Vogels, den Atemzug eines Fisches und den Bart einer Frau."

   "Weiß ja nicht, ob das Letzte so paradox ist", sagte ich. "Die Ver-

rückte Alice in Chinatown hat einen ziemlich überzeugenden Bart."

   Junior schnaubte. "Das Entscheidende ist, dass dieser Strick

noch besser hält. Ich nenne ihn Andskoti, den Teufel. Er ist aus den

mächstigsten Widersprüchlichkeiten in den Neun Welten geknüpft:

Wi-Fi ohne zeitliche Verzögerung, die Ehrlichkeit von Politikern,

gesunde frittierte Kost und eine interessante Vorlesung über Gram-

matik."

   "Stimmt", gab ich zu. "Das gibt es alles nicht."

"50 proof" by eaJ

do you still wake to sunsets

and eat home alone
watching the moon rise 

asking on and on
what's gone wrong

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9OCTnonBgw)

I Origins, 2014

Dr. Ian Gray: What's your favorite flower?

Sofi: Dandelions.

Dr. Ian Gray: Okay. Why?

Sofi: 'Cause, they're free, wild, and you can't buy them.

Together with you 

is my favourite 

place to be.

Jorge Luis Borges

Being with you
and not being with you

is the only way 

I have 

to measure time.

"in what the lost use to guide themselves home" by Abby S.

there's a shakiness to your voice, a doubt that I can only try to alter

and it's feeling the beat of your heart against my hand
that pounding noise that quiets the chaos
ends the foreboding sense of doom surrounding us

and I'm here
standing between you and the universe's need to ruin
I will run to fight for you for my entire life
that's the subtext of our vows, darling

and the world narrows down to you and me
to the future that we can create
and to the light we already shine,
pushing away the stars in what is talked about as stories

*(found on tumblr)

Veronica Mars

Logan: I thought our story was epic, you know, you and me.

Veronica: Epic how?

Logan: Spanning years and continents. Lives ruined, bloodshed. Epic. 

       But summer's almost here, and we won't see each other at all. 

       And then you leave town... and then it's over.

Veronica: Logan...

Logan: I'm sorry about last summer. You know, if I could do it over...

Veronica: Come on. Ruined lives? Bloodshed? You really think a relationship 

          should be that hard?

Logan: No one writes songs about the ones that come easy.

Ad Astra, 2020

The near future.
A time of both hope and conflict.
Humanity looks to the stars for intelligent life
and the promise of progress.

Elon Musk

If something is important enough, 

even if the odds are stacked against you, 

you should still do it.

The Boys, 2020

Fuck this world for confusing nice with good. 
Be a bitch if you want. Be whatever.
Just drop the mask once in a while. 
(Feels good. You can finally breathe.)

- Stormfront

"My Wife's Lovers" by Carl Kahler, 1891

• https://portlandartmuseum.org/exhibitions/carl-kahler/
• https://www.architecturaldigest.com/story/carl-kahler-my-wifes-lovers-auction

 Je t'aime plus qu'hier mais moins que demain.

~ I love you more than yesterday, but less than I'll love you tomorrow.

~ Ich liebe dich mehr als gestern, aber weniger als morgen.

(Johnny Farago - Je t'aime)

Albert Einstein

It's harder to crack
a prejudice than an atom.

Record of Youth, 2020

Some may root against you,

but there are others

who root for you.

James Blake "Are You Even Real" - Choreography by Anthony Lee

I spend the day
dreaming of connection

"my future" by Billie Eilish

'Cause I, I'm in love
With my future
Can't wait to meet her
And I, I'm in love
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself 

I know supposedly I'm lonely now 
Know I'm supposed to be unhappy without someone
But aren't I someone?

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dm9Zf1WYQ_A)

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FvEDuWeB4A)

Natalie Goldberg

Write what disturbs you,
what you fear,

what you have not been willing to speak about.

Be willing to be split open.

The Catch, 2016

I'm so tired of hearing men say 
they are trying to protect us 
when what that does is take away our choices. 
This is your life. These are your choices to make. 
But they're yours. Not his.

- Alice Vaughan

James Stewart

I think one day you'll find 

that you're the hero 

you've been looking for.

"Charlotte's Web" by E.B. White

What do you mean less than nothing? I don't think there is any such thing as less than nothing. Nothing is absolutely the limit of nothingness. It's the lowest you can go. It's the end of the line. How can something be less than nothing? If there were something that was less than nothing, then nothing would not be nothing, it would be something - even though it's just a very little bit of something. But if nothing is nothing, then nothing has nothing that is less than it is.

"Nobody Speak" by DJ Shadow ft. Run the Jewels

If you're reading this 

release your shoulders from your ears

unclench your jaw and 

remove your tongue from 

the roof of your mouth. 

We physically tend to hold onto stress 

in least noticeable ways. 

Relax.

"Jason Momoa & Lisa Bonet: Love at First Sight" on The Late Late Show with James Corden

 

"Politically Correct Pick Up" by Anna Akana

 

Apashe - Renaissance Live (League of Legends #MSS2020 Uncensored)

 

"The Vampire Diaries | Time Reverse" by ShatteredxDesires

 

Cara Delevingne: A Bride Less Ordinary | British Vogue

 

"How To Pose In Photos" by Sorelle Amore

 

Entspannungen: Abschalten mit Sleep by Headspace

* The english version: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3o9etQktCpI

 

i need to get my life together.

this weather made me realise 

i can't go to hell.

Ernest Hemingway

You are so brave and quiet 

I forget you are suffering.

Real friends build you up when you're insecure and, just as importantly, tear you down when you're arrogant. Real friends call each other out on each other's bullshit. Know why some celebrities become self-centered douchebags out of touch with reality? Well, imagine having 

an entourage full of fake friends that never disagree with you for fear they'll lose you. 

The truth is real friends are willing to risk a friendship to give you a slap of reality.

(found here)

Brianna Pastor

You say my name and I choke

up, as if my name is a word from 

some forbidden language that

I've never heard spoken aloud.

Emily Marie McBride

i will run to you. 

and i will run 

until i turn to dust, 

if i must. and if that happens, 

the wind will carry me 

until i reach you.

"The Egyptian Pyramids - Funny Animated Short Film" by Kheops Pyramids

"THE HEIST NO ONE IS TALKING ABOUT" by Oxfam GB

* Viewer Discretion Advised

Robin Lee

One day she remembered that it wasn't her job to make everyone happy.

he loves you and it hurts 

you think of everything and nothing 

in the span of a single moment

you think of yourself, and you think of him

you open your mouth, only to suffocate

beneath the weight of words you cannot say

you love him, and it hurts

"Alarm" by Jang Mu Hyun

"Zombie Boy" - It's Okay To Not Be Okay, 2020

Tablo's Journey with Mental Health Professionals | TTP Ep. #44 Highlight

"What It Means To Become The ‘Fat Friend’" by Your Fat Friend

“How are you,” I said sharply, voice shaking with irritation.

“I’m a little messed up,” he answered.

“No, you ask me.”

“What?”

[...]

So: be ashamed but confident, doomed but upbeat, abused but unaffected, unbothered by reminders of our own impending deaths.

[...] 

I want to learn a new language of friendship, and a new kind of fullness. 

I hope we can learn together.

(read the full article here: https://medium.com/the-establishment/what-it-means-to-become-the-fat-friend-8c1373ceac18)

Kingdom, 2019

Das bleibt dann wohl ein Traum, mein Kleiner.

Vergiss deine Träume. Solche wie dich hab ich zu Hauf gesehen.

Träume nützen dir auf dem Schlachtfeld gar nichts.

Träumer sind die Ersten, die in einer Schlacht tragisch zu Grunde gehen.

Träume sind nichts.

Was weiß einer wie du schon von Träumen?
Sie helfen einem aufzustehen und sie treiben einen an.
Träume machen stark, darum träumt man.
Träume machen stark, darum glaube ich an sie.

Du besiegst mich nicht.

Dann träum weiter.

"What happens when you call your fat friend beautiful" by Your Fat Friend

Beautiful, for better or worse, often means loved. 

Fat people are so rarely told we're either. As with telling me you love me, only tell me I'm beautiful if you mean it. And challenge yourself to mean it. Recognize the way it stretches you to call a fat person beautiful, not as an exception, but as a shifting, growing rule. Feel all the things you are rejecting by saying such a simple, common word.

(read full article here: https://medium.com/@thefatshadow/what-happens-when-you-call-your-fat-friend-beautiful-58f4b6ef0afe)

"One day I'll learn how to breathe" by e.r.

My lungs were never meant for breathing
Screaming perhaps, heaving, sobbing even
Just something more violent
Than a simple breath

(found on tumblr)

Avatar: The Last Airbender, 2005

While it is always best to believe in oneself, 

a little help from others can be a great blessing.

 - Iroh

Charles Baudelaire

Her ideas on morals have the same depth of judgment and delicacy of feeling as those of janitresses and kept women ... The fact that there are men who could become enamoured of 

this slut is indeed a proof of the abasement of the men of this generation.

*Charles Baudelaire about George Sand, a 19th century writer in France

"The Woman Dies" by Aoko Matsuda, transl. by Polly Barton

https://granta.com/the-woman-dies/

It's Okay to Not Be Okay, 2020

Moon Kang Tae	"What do you want from me? I know you won’t back off until you get it,   so tell me what you want. What do you want?"
Ko Mun Yeong	"'Just take it and leave?'"
Moon Kang Tae	"Yes, if you don’t mind."
Ko Mun Yeong	"You. — I’ll take it and leave.    Moon Kang Tae, what I want is you."
Moon Kang Tae	"Why me?"
Ko Mun Yeong	"Because I can’t stop wanting you."
Moon Kang Tae	"But why?"
Ko Mun Yeong	"Because you’re so pretty. Well, you know. Like shoes, clothes and cars.   When I see something pretty, I want it. And I need to have what I want.    Whether I have to pay for it, steal it or just take it by force. You   don’t need some grand reason to desire something, right?"

"Harry Potter 20th Anniversary Symphony" by Pteryx Videos

June 26, 1997 Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone was first published.
The Harry Potter series is officially 20 years old.

"대취타" by Agust D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGjAWJ2zWWI

https://open.spotify.com/track/0H4ugk6rhnXmTl47ayy9O5?si=ZDj0Zz_rSfOz2L2ttJ4vJA

"Pb-resources" by Alexis Williams

https://www.pb-resources.com/

It's Okay to Not Be Okay, 2020

Bad memories stay here [taps with her fingers on his chest, over his heart] longer.

The Boy Who Fed On Nightmares

The boy woke up from another awful nightmare. Bad memories from the past
that he wanted to erase from his head were replayed in his dreams every night
and haunted him nonstop. The boy was terrified of falling asleep.

So one day, he went to the witch and begged.

"Please get rid of all my bad memories so that I won't ever have a nightmare again. 

Then I will do everything you ask."

Years went by, and the boy became an adult. He no longer had nightmares. 

But for some strange reason, he wasn't happy at all.

One night, a blood moon filled the night sky, and the witch finally showed up again 

to take what he had promised in return for granting his wish. And he shouted at her 

with so much resentment.

"All my bad memories are gone. But why... Why can't I become happy?"

Then the witch took his soul as they had promised, 

and told him this—

"Hurtful, painful memories. Memories of deep regrets. Memories of hurting others 

and being hurt. Memories of being abandoned. 

Only those with such memories buried in their hearts can become stronger, more passionate, 

and emotionally flexible. And only those can attain happiness. 

So don't forget any of it. Remember it all and overcome it. 

If you don't overcome it, you'll always be a kid whose soul never grows."

(Found here: It's Okay to Not Be Okay, 2020)

Kim Sowol

When you leave,
weary of me,
without a word 

I shall gently let you go.

"What If We Cultivated Our Ugliness? or: The Monstrous Beauty of Medusa" by Jess Zimmermann

Medusa lost her beauty—or rather, it was taken from her. Beauty is always something you can lose. Women’s beauty is seen as something separate from us, something we owe but never own: We are its stewards, not its beneficiaries. We tend it like a garden where we do not live.

Oh, but ugliness—ugliness is always yours. Almost everyone has some innate kernel of grotesquerie; even fashion models (I’ve heard) tend to look a bit strange and froggish in person, having been gifted with naturally level faces that pool light luminously instead of breaking it into shards. And everyone has the ability to mine their ugliness, to emphasize and magnify it, to distort even those parts of themselves that fall within acceptable bounds.

Where beauty is narrow and constrained, ugliness is an entire galaxy, a myriad of sparkling paths that lurch crazily away from the ideal. There are so few ways to look perfect, but there are thousands of ways to look monstrous, surprising, upsetting, outlandish, or odd. Thousands of stories to tell in dozens of languages: the languages of strong features or weak chins, the languages of garish makeup and weird haircuts and startling clothes, fat and bony and hairy languages, the languages of any kind of beauty that’s not white. Nose languages, eyebrow languages, piercing and tattoo languages, languages of blemish and birthmark and scar. When you give up trying to declare yourself acceptable, there are so many new things to say.

(full article here: https://catapult.co/stories/role-monsters-gorgons-medusa-women-beauty-ugliness)

Fortesa Latifi

all my grief says the same thing: 

this isn't how it's supposed to be.
this isn't how it's supposed to be.

and the world laughs,
holds my hope by the throat,
says: 

but this is how it is.

"An Archive of Feelings" by Ann Cvetkovich

Because trauma can be unspeakable and unrepresentable and 

because it is marked by forgetting and dissociation, 

it often seems to leave behind no records at all.

Dinner Mate, 2020

You know, our heart can be a step behind our brain.

"Mayday" by Crush ft. Joy

Tag des Hundes, 2020

Leanne Betasamosake Simpson

I think we fucked, and maybe I should say make love, 

but maybe not because we didn't actually make love. 

It was sadder than that. We were sadder than that. 

But it wasn't bad and it wasn't wrong. It wasn't desperate. I think it was salvation.

"Before You Came" by Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Before you came, 

things were as they should be: 

the sky was the dead-end of sight, 

the road was just a road, wine merely wine. 

Now everything is like my heart, 

a color at the edge of blood: 

the grey of your absence, the color of poison, of thorns, 

the gold when we meet, the season ablaze, 

the yellow of autumn, the red of flowers, of flames, 

and the black when you cover the earth 

with the coal of dead fires. 

And the sky, the road, the glass of wine? 

The sky is a shirt wet with tears, 

the road a vein about to break, 

and the glass of wine a mirror in which the sky, 

the road, the world keep changing. 

Don't leave now that you're here— 

Stay. So the world may become like itself again: 

so the sky may be the sky, 

the road a road, 

and the glass of wine not a mirror, just a glass of wine.

"Gut Symmetries" by Jeanette Winterson

We looked at each other, 

afraid to speak, 

afraid to load our feelings into words 

in case the words cracked and split. 

I pinned my tongue to the roof of my mouth. 

Hold in, hold in, 

one crack and the wall is breached.

"Cecilia and the Satellite" by Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness

Through all the things my eyes have seen
The best by far is you

For all the things my hands have held
The best by far is you

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tYya_LOPEw)

I'm sick to death of this particular self. I want another.
- "Orlando" by Virginia Woolf ||

I am tired of myself tonight. I should like to be somebody else.
- "The Picture of Dorian Gray" by Oscar Wilde ||

The enormity of my desire disgusts me.
- "The War of the Foxes" by Richard Siken ||

What if I'm someone I don't want around.
- "Falling" by Harry Styles ||

Hyena, 2020

Some people make me gag even though I try so hard to respect them.

"The Chaos of Stars" by Kiersten White

And I'd choose you;
in a hundred lifetimes,
in a hundred worlds,
in any version of reality,
I'd find you and I'd choose you.

"The 5 Stages of Loving You" by Abby S

i lost you to space and time,
i nearly lost you to fate

but we were always fighters,
and so i know you'll come back to me
i know you'll come home to me

and our devotion outstrips the fairy tales,
because we were never guaranteed a happy ending

when we crash back together
the world narrows down to the sound
of a single heartbeat


(full poem here: https://fireandsteelofangels.tumblr.com/post/163661863272/i-meeting-you-when-i-saw-you-the-world-didnt)

When My Love Blooms, 2020

Let's say that we miraculously meet again.
But I'm scared...
it might be at her funeral.

John Green

Maybe there's something
you're afraid to say,
or someone you're
afraid to love, or some-
where you're afraid
to go. It's gonna
hurt. It's gonna hurt
because it matters.

Hyena, 2020

Yoon Hee-Jae: My day was nothing compared to yours.
Jung Geum-Ja: Physical injuries recover quickly. Emotional inquiries don't.
              [Taps on his chest, near his heart]. It lasts quite a while.

"Graveyard" by Halsey -- Choreography by Noelle Marsh & Jade Chynoweth

"Transformations of the Lover" by Adonis

We bow, we meet, we pass or sit opposite each other.
You are my garments, and I am yours.
Our muscles tense.
Our skins taste like a violent sea.

[Adonis (2000):Transformations of the Lover. In: Adonis: The Pages of Day and Night (trans. Samuel Hazo).]

"Good Thing" by Zedd with Kehlani

Eleanor Russell

you are
wasting
your heart
on those
who do not
see it as art

(https://www.instagram.com/e.russellpoetry/)

Ivan Nuru

If it's out your hands,
it deserves freedom from your mind too.

Lost in Translation

Charlotte: I just don't know what I'm supposed to be.

Bob: You'll figure that out. The more you know who you are, and what you want,
     the less you let things upset you.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNK7N3AwVFQ)

look. i don't think my stretch marks are beautiful. i don't think they're tiger stripes or natural tattooos. i don't think my acne is beautiful. i don't think the bags under my eyes are beautiful. i just think they're human. and i don't think i have to be beautiful all of the time in order to be accepted and loved and sucessful. i don't think every small detail of my outer appearence needs to be translated into prettiness.

(found here)

Paulo Coelho

I think it's important to realize you can miss something
but not want it back.

Dr. Seuss

I am weird, you are weird.
Everyone in this world is weird.
One day two people come together in mutual weirdness and fall in love.

Katherine Mansfield

You are now so fulfilled in your own being,
in being alive, in living, in aspiring towards
a greater sense of life and a deeper loving,

"Alles was ich hab" von Fynn Kliemann

Ich tausch
'n bisschen Mut
gegen tolle Aussicht
Und wie das geht?
Digga,
weiß ich auch nicht

Anhören: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xrCQGEeasBQ
   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAKG2osKm4E
(https://www.instagram.com/p/B-xS31LiOYk/)

"Noir" by Sunmi

Neil Strauss

Perhaps the biggest mistake I made in the past was that I believed love was about finding the right person. In reality, love is about becoming the right person. Don't look for the person you want to spend your life with. Become the person you want to spend your life with.

"The Sandman" by Neil Gaiman

Everybody has a secret world inside of them.
All of the people of the world,
I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside,
inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent,
wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world.
Hundreds of them.
Thousands maybe.

American Animals, 2018

Man(n), ich will nicht, dass du irgendwann aufwachst,
in 10 Jahren oder so, und dich fragst,
was hätte passieren können und
wer du sein könntest.
 - Warren

~ Engl. Ver. ~
Man, I don't want you waking up,
10 years from now, wondering
what could have happened and
who you could have been.
 - Warren

American Animals, 2018

Hast du schon mal darüber nachgedacht,
wieso du so geboren wurdest, wie du bist?
Hier? Anstatt jemand anders zu sein?

Hast du schon mal das Gefühl gehabt, dass du
darauf wartest, dass etwas passiert? Du weißt aber
nicht auf was. Aber das.. wäre das Ereignis,
das dein Leben besonders macht.
 - Spencer


~ Engl. Ver. ~
You ever wonder, you ended being born you?
Here? And not someone else?

You ever feel like you're waiting for something to
happen? But you don't know what it is. But it is.. that
thing that could your life make special.
 - Spencer

"Therapist" by Mae Muller

 

Virginia Wolf

no need to hurry
no need to sparkle
no need to be anybody
but oneself

"HELP" by 10cm

"Diggers" by Terry Pratchett

The trouble with having an open mind, of course, is
that people will insist on coming along and
trying to put things in it.

Vincent van Gogh

Be of good heart.

William Shakespeare

Love me or hate me, both are in my favour…
If you love me, I’ll always be in your heart …
If you hate me, I’ll always be in your mind.

"Chain of Gold" von Cassandra Clare

"However what?" said Christopher. "If you haven't got
the proper clothes, I could lend you my new waistcoat. It's orange."

Anna shuddered. "Orange is not the color of seduction, Christopher.
Orange is the color of despair, and pumpkins."

Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy (2006)

I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke.

"Leben, schreiben, atmen" von Doris Dörrie

Dein Leben ist eine einzige Aneinandereihung von Perspektivwechseln. Du kannst nicht wissen, was dein Ich von morgen über dein Leben denkt. Die "Ichs" deiner verschiedenen Lebensphasen haben verschiedene Wahrheiten, die sich nicht zu einer Wahrheit über dich zusammenfügen lassen.

"It's Kind of a Funny Story" by Ned Vizzini

Sometimes I just think depression's one way of coping with the world.
Like, some people get drunk, some people do drugs, some people get depressed.
Because there's so much stuff out there that you have to do something to deal with it.

"Blue-Eyed Devil" by Lisa Kleypas

I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning
to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.

Pablo Neruda

I want to do with you what
spring does with the cherry trees.

Conor Oberst

I really just want to be warm yellow light
that pours over everyone I love.

Constantine Spiritworker

Some days you just have to say
‘fuck it, I did what I could today’
and just let go of all the stuff
you wanted to do.
Life is too short
to be angry with yourself
for being human.

Friedrich Nietzsche

Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth
because they don't want their illusions destroyed.

The Umbrella Academy, 2019

Die Guten sind die gleichen Leute wie die Bösen.
Es sind alles nur Menschen, die vor sich hinleben.
Aber wenn die Welt untergeht, dann sterben sie alle.
 - Fünf/ Nummer Fünf

"No Sleep | A Chill Mix" by MrSuicideSheep

Everyone suffers from sleeplessness at some point in their life. There's just so much going on nowadays, so many problems in the world and it's so overwhelming. You end up lying awake at night dreading falling asleep because then you'll wake up and have to face the world again. At the same time, I often find myself staying up late because I feel like that's the only time that I have to myself, to carve out a little peace in the day. This mix is for those moments in the night. To escape your worries for a little while and just drift away with the music.

- MrSuicideSheep

"Ich freue mich" von Lina Maly

Nenn' mich gut
Nenn' mich schlecht
Es is' egal was du denkst
Lass mich los, halt mich fest

Nenn' mich falsch
Nenn' mich echt
Es is' egal was du denkst
Gib mir Mut, nimm ihn weg

Merkst du denn nicht
Dass jetzt alles neu ist
Siehst du denn nicht
Es ist vorbei und ich freue mich

Ich freu' mich
Ich freu' mich
Ich freu' mich auf die Stadt, auf den Morgen und die Nacht
Und die Lieder, die du alle nicht magst
Immer war ich wach, doch diesen Fehler mach' ich nie wieder

Schieb's auf mich
Mach' mich klein
Is' mir egal was du jetzt machst
Schlimm ist nur, wenn es so bleibt

Schließ' mich aus
Schließ' dich ein
Is' mir egal was du verpasst
Wo du bist, will ich nich' sein

Merkst du denn nicht
Dass jetzt alles neu ist
Siehst du denn nicht
Es ist vorbei und ich freue mich

Ich freu' mich
Es is' vorbei und ich freue mich
Ich freue mich
Ich freu' mich
Ich freu' mich auf die Stadt, auf den Morgen und die Nacht
Und die Lieder, die du alle nicht magst
Immer war ich wach, doch diesen Fehler mach' ich nie wieder

"Schön genug" von Lina Maly

Aber alles soll und alles muss 

Aber alles geht und jeder will 

Perfekt sein 

Perfekt sein 

Sind wir denn nie schön genug? 

Ist es hier nie schön genug? 

Sind wir denn nie schön genug? 

So wie wir sind, sind wir so viel zu schnell zu müde oder blind 

Ich wäre manchmal gerne weniger von allem 

Und trotzdem genug 

Will ohne Plan und ohne Richtung sein 

Aber irgendwie gut

Ohne Lösung, ohne Perfektion 

Und ohne aufzufallen will ich ich selber sein 

Will ich ich selber sein 

  

Mark Groves

Walls keep everybody out.
Boundaries teach people where the door is.

Rememory, 2018

Ich denke, wir sind alle Überbleibsel unserer unerfüllten Träume.
 - Carolyn Dunn

William Chapman

A great future doesn't require a great past.

When The Weather Is Fine, 2020

Im Eun Seob: Eating and sleeping well is more difficult than we think.
Mok Hae Won: It is?
Im Eun Seob: It's such a basic thing, but people still have trouble with it.

Nicole Addison

Go to where your heart feels the most alive.
Listen, and you will hear it calling to you.
Be mindful, and you will feel it shine.
Your heart knows where to lead you.
We must first, however, learn how to take notice.

(found here: https://www.instagram.com/nicole.addison/)

Last Christmas, 2019

Was ist so schwer daran widersprüchlich und manchmal irrational zu sein?
Und deswegen unsicher?
Wieso muss man irgendwas sein?
 - Tom Webster

Last Christmas, 2019

Allein Mensch zu sein, ist schwer.
Wirklich schwer.
 - Tom Webster

"Making peace with food" by Pick Up Limes

David Brent

Life is just a series of peaks and troughs,
and you don't know whether you're in a trough until you're climbing out,
or on a peak until you're coming down.
And that's it, you know, you never know what's round the corner.
But it's all good. "If you want the rainbow
you've got to put up with the rain". Do you know
which "philosopher" said that? Dolly Parton.
And people say she's just a big pair of tits.

Joker, 2019

• I just hope my death makes more cents than my life.

• The worst part of having a mental illness is 
  people expect you to behave as if you don't. 

Alan W. Watts

The meaning of life is just to be alive.
It is so plain and so obvious and so simple.
And yet, everybody rushes around in a great panic
as if it were necessary to achieve something
beyond themselves.

Little Women, 2019

Women, they have minds and they have souls as well as just hearts. And they've got ambition and they've got talent as well as just beauty, and I'm so sick of people saying that love is just all a woman is fit for. I'm so sick of it! But… I am so lonely.

 

* On a personal note: I hate Valentine's Day...!

"ASMR - Caring friend spends time with you on Valentine’s Day - Self-love talk 💕" by BehindTheMoons

much more

you are tougher than your demons
you are greater than the pain

"That B*tch" by Bea Miller

"Identity" by Keone & Mari

Neil Strauss

Perhaps the biggest mistake I made in the past was that I believed love was about finding the right person. In reality, love is about becoming the right person. Don't look for the person you want to spend your life with. Become the person you want to spend your life with.

"Negative Space" by Tiny Inventions (Ru Kuwahata & Max Porter)

"Beving: Ala" by Joep Beving

The biggest mistake I've ever made,
is letting someone stay in my life,
far longer than they deserve.

Triad Princess, 2019

Over the past decade,
all we've ever talked about is work.
Have we forgotten what it feels like to be in love?

"1 Minute" von Fynn Kliemann

"Der Rest meines Lebens" von Felix Kummer ft. Max Raabe

"all the kids are depressed" by Jeremy Zucker

"Shantaram" by Gregory David Roberts

I still love you.
And sometimes, my friend,
the love that I have, and can't give to you,
crushes the breath from my chest.
Sometimes, even now, my heart is drowning
in a sorrow that has no stars without you,
and no laughter, and no sleep.

"cookie" by Jeff Kaale

https://soundcloud.com/jeff-kaale/cooke

"Tired" by NIve

 

Brooke Hampton

I hope there are days when your coffee tastes like magic,
your playlist makes you dance,
strangers make you smile,
and the night sky touches your soul.
I hope there are days when you fall in love with being alive.

"Luck" by Guest Contributor

And you are sloshing with self-loathing,
and you wish you could twist yourself like
a kitchen towel. Wring yourself out.
What were you? Were you wrong?
Was that what you were? Wrong.
Just wrong all the way through.

(read the full article here: https://entropymag.org/luck/)

"Possessing the Secret of Joy" by Alice Walker

If you lie to yourself about your own pain,
you will be killed by those who will claim you enjoyed it.

When a thing hurts your eyes, stop looking at it.
When it hurts your ears, stop listening to it. And
when it hurts your heart, stop justifying it.

MTV Teen Wolf

Deaton: Things will always even out.
Scott: Like, things will always get better?
Deaton: Mhm, more like things can't always be bad.
Scott: So, no matter how bad things get...
Deaton: ...or how good...
Scott: ...they always come back to the middle.

I wonder how much of what weighs me down is not mine to carry.

Frank Ocean

Go for someone
who is proud
to have you.

"Dieting & Weight Myths Debunked" by fat.designer

https://www.instagram.com/p/B6FOo7qAKtb/

Virginia Woolf

Her heart was made of liquid sunsets.